Sunday, November 6, 2011
a week after pisco
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
i'm better at building houses than uploading photos
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
at peace with Flickr
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
another kid-friendly letter to kids
Another bus brought us half-way across the country to Arequipa where we feasted on local specialties and let our eyes soak up the gorgeous colonial arquitecture. Then, before they returned to Lima for a flight home, we introduced them to Pisco—the place to which we'd dedicated so much time and love over the last few months.
Wren
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
To See Fear
This entry is part of my recent application to an internship that required two documentary journalism pieces and one personal story. This is the personal story. I've held off posting for so long now because I knew I would first need to write about this experience before I wrote about anything else and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. It's not that I couldn't, but rather that I didn't want to. I didn't know what I would say. The internship application gave me the incentive I needed to get it all on paper.
On April 22, 2011, my girlfriend and I were robbed at gunpoint. I’m not talking about some trivial street mugging where the guy motions to the revolver stuck half-way between his navel and the inside of his pants, says, “give me all your money,” and then runs down the nearest dark alley with your wad of bills stuffed deep in his pocket. That almost seems too Hollywood to even be true.
My girlfriend Gabby and I had been traveling for the last four months, slowly making our way down through Latin America, and had just arrived in Ecuador. It was our first full day in the country, having crossed the border the previous night from a bridge in rural Colombia. The border crossing was scary enough, but we felt relieved to arrive in Ecuador after already being robbed at knife-point in broad daylight in Bogota just a week before. By comparison, Colombia seems like the big brother who dropped out of high school and can’t stay out of trouble—the narco-trafficking, the civil conflict, the kidnappings, the armed guerrilla groups. Ecuador is more like the parents’ favorite child who can’t do anything wrong. After making it through the danger zones of Mexico and Colombia over the last few months during the biggest drug war in Mexico’s history, we were relieved to have a breather and finally feel safe in the rolling green hills of Ecuador’s highlands.
We spent most of our first whole day enjoying the sprawling market that takes over nearly all downtown of the rural, northern city of Otavalo. We stuffed ourselves with traditional corn and pork dishes and bought hand-made sweatshirts to warm our torsos, now cold in the thin mountain air.
We only had a few days in the area and the receptionist at our hostel recommended we hike up to the large lake that bordered the town’s rural neighbor, lying just on the other side of one of the many surrounding hills. Two cold beers were stuffed into our bag with which to enjoy the darkening pink of the afternoon sun and we started up the two-lane road to the next village.
The hike took us up a steep muddy path through the woods and up to another highway that led down into the next valley. We set foot onto the road just as we crested the hill, a few adobe houses on either side of us and the mountain-encircled lake rippling below in the distance. It was beautiful, but our view from the top of the hill was even better. So we sat for a while on the side of the highway and stared mesmerized by the deepness of the green of the hills, their smooth yet jagged peaks, the bristling white snow of higher mountains in the distance. After a few minutes we were joined by another traveler, an Australian studying in Medellin, and swapped stories about our journeys between sips of beer as the sun painted the clouds on the horizon with thick hues of red and orange and pink.
When a fog started rolling in over the valley, so thick that it completely enveloped a neighboring house on another hillside, we decided we should probably head back to town. Bags packed and beers emptied, we started back down the road. We hadn’t even walked the length of a football field when we passed from fields into a patch of thin, towering evergreen trees on both sides of the road. Our eyes were drawn to the woods on the left of the road where two men hurdled bushes through the thick fog, their heads cloaked in black ski masks, their arms outstretched in our direction. At first, I didn’t understand. I thought it just might have been a coincidence that they were emerging from the woods at the same time that we happened to be passing through it. The ski masks didn’t even seem to register in my mind. They weren’t important. But yet we stood still and watched as they bounded toward us, their eyes focused and glaring into ours. When they reached us, climbed over the last bush and onto the road, I finally realized what was happening. I had to wait until a long-silver barrel was pointed in my face to understand that we were being robbed.
They came right up to us, grabbing us by our clothing, and lead us into the darkening patch of trees on the opposite side of the road. The one in charge never took his finger off the trigger, the barrel of the revolver focused intently on our heads. They lead us well into the thick trees—far enough that we could no longer see the road, and anyone who happened to pass by couldn’t see us. They forced us to sit down, “keep quiet,” they said, “or someone will hear.” One of them put a finger gently to his lips while the other hand kept the gun pointed at my face.
The next five to ten minutes pass in my memory like a blur, but one in which I can remember nearly everything: their persistent demands for us to keep quiet and sit down, their hushed tones, my girlfriend’s helpless sobbing, the dark, hollow center of their eyes that shown only a shade lighter than the black mask that engulfed them.
Then, after they’d gotten what they came for—all of our money, iPods, cameras—they motioned for us to head back to the road, waving at it with the tip of their pistols. They didn’t even run away; just shuffled their feet slowly out of the forest in the opposite direction, looking down into their bags and calculating the worth of their earnings.
‘Luckily, none of you were hurt. That’s all that really matters.’ We’ve heard this sung back to us every time we’ve recalled the story to our friends, family, and fellow travelers. That they may have taken all of our stuff, but at least we’re okay. But for the first few months after it happened, any physical pain they could have inflicted upon me seemed dwarfed by the psychological consequences of their actions. Sure, we got away and no one got hurt. But what if physical damage wasn’t the worst thing they could have done to me?
The passing days and nights of the months that followed were all plagued by a similar story. I’d find myself floating out of the bus seat, the dinner table, or the pages of my book and into a scenario in which I was protecting myself and Gabby from harm by beating a ski-masked assailant over the head with a crow bar or caving his face in with a shovel. I always snapped out of these daydreams to find my jaw clenched and my knuckles stretched tight over the sharp bones in my fist, wondering, ‘how did I end up there?’ I’m not a violent person, and the daydreams scared me—not only in their vivid realness, but also the way in which a part of me seemed to enjoy them, to need them.
But the dreams weren’t even the worst of it. The biggest collateral damage, at least as far as I was concerned, was the lasting impression the robbing had on me and the new manner through which I viewed the world and the people around me. No more unwavering trust, no more benefit of the doubt.
During my four years at college I took classes that constantly pushed the boundaries of my own world view and my understanding of how we relate to one another—how to challenge the status quo. Ever since then I’ve made a daily effort to challenge the prejudices and trivial skin-deep differences between us that I had been spoon-fed since elementary school.
Now all of that seemed to have been turned on its head. I was back to square one. I could no longer look at everyone with the same, blanketing level of trust or confidence in their character. Where I previously didn’t make superficial judgments, or at least tried my best not to, I was now doing exactly the opposite. Every time I saw a dark-skinned male walking toward me in the street that failed to return my passing smile, or gave me a strange look, they automatically registered as a threat.
In short, what some may view as no more than a stick-up had a lasting impression on me because it challenged everything that I believed in—my own ability to look beyond color in the face of a single trying incident, much less the ability of the rest of the nation.
What was happening to me? I felt myself slipping into a mindset similar to that of the same bigots and closed-minded people I’d tried so hard to change—whose views I’d so despised.
The reason I chose this story was not because of the adventurous or exciting nature of our armed robbery but rather because of how it made me feel. It ripped me squarely off of my (self-designated) pedestal as a color-indifferent “progressive,” and set me back down with the masses—the millions of other Americans who are still prejudice, who sometimes still feel fear because of color alone.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
fotos from the vault
small community for a month. It's perimeter is defined by the mountain on the right
and the highway that separates it from the fields in the distance.
Only a few hundred people call it home.
during our time there, as well as worked in the school teaching both children
and adults throughout the week.
huddled around the two fans to escape remaining drenched in sweat for the entire hour.
more, but many only came for a few nights.
boys of Barrio Oasis, as seen empty at night upon our return from the center
of Santa Marta. The streets were almost always deserted when we got back
from visiting our friends in town.
toward the main intersection and corner store.
among the other volunteers.
at Tayrona National Park, an hour west of Santa Marta. Popular among Colombians
and foreigners as a vacation spot, the park boasts beautiful coastline spattered with
enormous boulders that can only be seen by hiking (or riding horseback) through
the dense jungle. We spent the weekend there and then hiked a 5-hour loop back
through indigenous communities in the rocky hills.
outside her home every day of the week.
in the small, isolated village after two hours in a bumpy taxi ride, we threw our bags
on and climbed the steep slope to our hostel, which looked out over the entire valley, the
coastline of Santa Marta visible in the distance.
in for a few nights. Paradise.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
journal entries from the Quilotoa Loop
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
My first real journal entry in well over a decade. We took a bus from the central highlands of Ecuador today to, well, higher. We must be at least 3,000 meters, or so it feels like it. We ate a deliciously simple breakfast of croissants, fresh juice, and tea this morning at the Hostel Tiara in Latacunga. Gabby and I then proceeded to remain completely stationary for the next few hours and stuff our noses deep into the pages of our books. I finished Tom Robbin’s “Villa Incognito,” thoroughly enjoying the playful story as well as his political, social, and philosophical banter. The protagonists’ discussions of Western attachments to things, physical manmade things, as well as their countering of a rather opposite Asian philosophy made me feel better about being robbed at gun point a few days ago. I can still be angry at the principal of it, and the men for treating us like shit (and frightening Gabby so), but it’s about time I got over the few things lost. A camera, Leatherman, knives, iPod, and a couple hundred bucks can be replaced of course, it’s just difficult to decide whether or not I really need them. I don’t.
The bus ride here was incredible. The small, dirt, one-lane road coiled tight around the hips of the Andes, which seem to thrust themselves toward the sky like the hands of Gospel singers in a Baptist church. Their peaks were often shrouded in mist and rain, but it only made the countless shades of their green cloaks shimmer that much more. It was surprising how high up the farmers dare to cultivate the earth here. The dense, multicolored patchwork makes the mountains look as if they’re wearing a fantastically beautiful second-hand skirt that has had the help of 100 gifted artists to beautify its aging stitch.
Over an hour into the drive, while Gabby was sleeping on my shoulder, I looked out across the valley and over the dizzying steep slopes separating us to see a solitary tree springing out of an abnormally flat and otherwise barren piece of earth a third of the way up the mountain. I couldn’t help but want to be over there and bask in the company of such an old and solitary being. Surely it would have something to teach me, if not at least share its awe-inspiring view. Then, almost as quickly as the thought emerged, it was subdued by one of fear—fear of being so alone and visible to whomever where to gaze across the valley. But I have no fear of solitude. I rather treasure it. So where does this fear come from? Do I yearn that badly to not draw further attention to myself in a foreign place? Well, I might as well get over it. As my father would say, I stick out like a sore thumb here.
We passed the rest the day in lethargic paradise. After arriving at Llullu Llama Hostel in the tiny, high-mountain village of Isinliví, I moved little but to walk out to the beautiful bathroom and back. The woodstove-heated main room looked out over the luscious green valley of patchwork wonder, in which we sat and played cards, ate chocolate, and warmed ourselves in preparation for tomorrow. Dinner was heavenly: spicy quinoa soup chased with home-made lasagna stuffed with the delicacies of their hostel-side garden, and topped off with chocolate cake and as much tea and coffee as we could muster.
We shared the space with a young British couple (with whom we’ll hike tomorrow), a German named Marco and a Danish girl, Stine. Though quite pretty, her short golden locks couldn’t quite make up for her ruthless sense of humor. She’s not the first Dane I’ve met who seemed to try to out-comic all those in attendance with her merciless attempts at sarcasm. There’s a difference between being funny and just plain mean.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Hostal Llullu Llama. Really soft bed. Too soft. Woke up with a sore back and lungs thick with the smoke from the fire we made last night to warm our bones before sleep.
8 a.m. – breakfast of champions. Huge bowl of fresh fruit topped with granola and local yogurt; scrambled eggs with homemade bread and jam; fresh-squeezed juice and local coffee. I was too good to pass up writing about. We stuffed our faces along with the rest of the troupe, then headed down the mountain at 9:05 sharp.
The previous night’s rain had turned much of the path to thick mud, if not a river in some places. Easily the most gorgeous walk we’ve had on the trop so far—tomorrow’s supposed to be better! The path brought us snaking down into the valley, across a river, and back up into the cradle of another valley. We climbed ancient earthen steps that date back to the Incas. At 45 minutes in, we plateaued (literally) on a remarkably flat piece of earth at that altitude and shared our presence with a horse, who enjoyed our apple about as much as we enjoyed the view down the valley and across the mountains. There is nothing that can compare to such a deep, vigorous shade of green.
We descended to the bottom of the valley with the help of a small local lady (not more than four feet tall) who must have been at least in her 60s or 70s. She quickly hopped down the mountain path and across new, dense marshland created by the power of the raging river, which seemed to be trying to take the mountains with it. She, as well as the few others whose simple earthen dwellings pepper the mountainside, is a subsistence farmer who lives primarily off the corn and potatoes that she cultivates on the steep, high altitude plots that most Western farmers wouldn’t even dare hike up, much less attempt to sow seed. The little that she makes from the beans that she grows alongside her corn provides her enough income to buy whatever she might need in town.
We followed the river for another twenty minutes after she abandoned us for the couple beautiful horses she had come to tend to, and then started our slow ascent. We came first to the small village of Itualo, which was really much too small to even be considered that. Do four buildings constitute a village? Immediately after passing their tiny, humbling church, we started steeply up the mountain, whose eager switchbacks had us doubled over more than its crippling peaks. The view from the top was mind-numbing. How can these people live in happiness with so little, and our people live in misery with everything?
One striking feature that really sets this landscape apart from others is the effect that landslides have had on the mountains. Much of the path had been turned inside-out by landslides. Once we reached the top to gaze across the next beautiful valley, we could see remnants of the havoc previous landslides wreaked on the mountainside, their age discernible by the depth of the green hue of the grass that struggled to repopulate the steep, crumbling peaks.
We walked through another small “village” called Chinalo, this one even smaller than the last, before hiking up the dirt road to Chugchilan. I now sit comfortably at the Cloud Forest Hostel, trying my best to keep warm while enjoying the chorus of falling rain and chirping local children as they make their way down the steep roads, heading home from school.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Another amazing breakfast today. Woke up to rain massaging the window above our heads. Cloud Forest Hostel, which looks a little like a ski lodge, provided us a welcomed double bed on a second floor loft in the dorm—quiet, peaceful, rainy serenity.
Out the door by 8:45 a.m. Accompanied once again by young English duo, James and Miranda. He’s quite funny—his myriad English accents kept me thinking of something other than my aching legs during the hike. The rain washed away much of the trail, so we were directed to take the small, winding one-way dirt road instead. It’s certainly not as novel as the path, which solitarily snakes through the mountainside, but it’s still the Andes and still incredibly gorgeous. We walked for about four hours again today. Mostly up, unfortunately. Much different from yesterday—the climb was higher, and so we were amongst the presence of ancient alpine friends. Gab and I noticed that, if it weren’t for the incredible two or three mile view across the Andean highlands, when we kept our eyes straight ahead it almost felt as if we were in the Adirondacks.
We often wished we were on the path, for its novelty and solitude. Alas, one benefit of the road was that, because of its size, we were able to look out across the patchwork green hills after hours of struggle to trace our surprising progress back around the hills and mountains in the distance.
We cheated and hitched a ride in the back of a pick-up toward the end. We still had about another three hours left and we were all feeling beat. We were glad we did it—the majority of the ride was up. Whatever we could have walked would have been worth it—Quilotoa was a truly breathtaking sight. The crater’s size is enough to knock you on your ass, not to mention the emerald-green sparkling waters which wait in near absolute stillness about 1,000 feet below. I asked how deep the water was and the locals said it does not end, there is no bottom. However enchanting their response may be, the guidebook says otherwise—a few hundred feet. Still impressive.
We basked in the high-altitude glory of the beautiful crater for a short while before bidding our companions farewell and beginning the long ride back to Latacunga. Started raining when we got back. After three perfect sunny days in the mountains. Figures. Big chicken dinner, hot shower, and then watched “The King’s Speech” in honor of all things British. Congratulations Mr. Prince William.
HEY THERE! My camera got robbed, so look at someone else's photos instead.